Lately I have been really struggling with my life. I keep being told how awesome, amazing, or wonderful I am by various people. I HATE when people say that to or about me because I've always had it stuck in my head that I don't deserve to be called those things. I always thought I was a worthless piece of crap. Then, I came to know God, and realized that I'm not worthless, but my purpose is to serve him and all that I do should bring him glory. Now, God has blessed me with a great, inspirational story to share with others, some wisdom(so I'm told), and great faith(so I'm told). I don't always believe all these things and these are probably only a few of the gifts and talents God has given me, to better serve him. He gives each of us different gifts though, because we all serve a different purpose in this world and need to different gifts to serve his purpose for us. Since God has blessed me with my "special story", I'm being told more and more frequently how great I am. Last night I was arguing with my friend that I wasn't any of these because they all come from God, I am just his instrument, I don't deserve to recieve the credit for the things I'm doing, etc. My friend conitnued to tell me that I am all these things that people say about me, yet I refused to accept this.
Now, last night I was too tired to take this to prayer, so I made sure I got to it today. God revelaed to me how he was hurt that I couldn't accept the gifts he had given me, so when I realized I had hurt my Lord, I sought his help, whole-heartedly, trying to figure out how to overcome this struggle I have been carrying with me for over a year now. The good Lord revelaed to me a way to help me be more willing to accept these truths that people tell me, by giving each praise I recieve, for what I do, to him and using the praise I recieve to glorify him! God helped me to realize that I have a special role in this world and will be an instrument for him to reach many people. I now want to remind you- You are special! You do play an important role in this world! You have a specific, detailed plan written out for you; when you come to the Lord, he will meet you right where you are at and help you to move forward at your pace! You just have to put forth the effort and work towards giving Jesus your all!
God bless!
Keep praying!
In Jesus&Mary,
amber
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